Just wanted to let everyone know that, despite the fact this blog is fairly new, I won’t be writing much again until around the end of March. The reason being is that for my Screenwriting class, we are required to write a daily journal entry. To prevent myself from recycling journals and placing them on here from my written material, I thought it’d be better to stop and just resume my writing once this class comes to an end.
But, until then, with the turn of the new year came a huge turn in my life. So many things have been occurring that just put me in such a melancholic mood where my spirits were dejected. School commenced the 5th of January and ’till this day, I’m just not into it. When I know there are thousands of people from my homeland being slaughtered, I cannot rest easily. My mind is constantly bombarded by thoughts and images of the Gaza massacres and this, in itself, is enough to put me in such a sullen mood.
As if that wasn’t enough, everything that I was so certain about in life that not only affects me in present day, but affects my future as well, have been coming undone and going asunder.
I was foolish to hold true the lies that I was made to believe. BUT, what I do know for sure is that I’m so unbelievably thankful to God for letting me see the truth before I was stuck in a rut. I felt like I’ve come so far, and this is probably why I was still holding on to something that no longer has made me happy. Of course, you will always find something that makes you happy in any given situation, but if I separated all the positives and negatives, ultimately, the negatives overshadowed the positives. When you are so familiar with a certain path, however, going a different path feels awkward at first, but I’m already starting to get accustomed to this new route.
I’m liking it and I finally feel a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulder. No more ridiculous limitations, no more physical and emotional restraints on my life, no more walking on eggshells, no more having to deal with pettiness, and, of course, no more being unhappy. It’s almost similar to the feeling I’ve felt after literally getting away from the negativity that surrounded me for 18 years by moving to where I live today.
Everything happens for a reason and God surely knows that in which we do not. If something doesn’t work out the way we’ve anticipated, then it just was not meant to be. No need to wallow in sorrow. Life is too short to let anyone or anything get in the way of your felicity.